Dear Lynley, Tears are rolling down my cheeks. Your story is so beautiful. In all the sorrow and pain you honor your husband’s and your time together in such an honest way. I could tell you that you will feel better as time passes but don’t feel like you’re in a rush. Stay in the state you are in (whatever state that is, because it changes) as long as you need to and want to. And don’t let others (who want you to move on) decide your pace. Let it take time. And let the waves of sadness wash over you — don’t fight it. There will be easier times in between. I promise.